Some people have asked me how I started my weight loss. My first few months in the blog archive explain it all.

Saturday, January 2, 2010


My insatiable desire to redecorate balanced with a stay at home motherhood budget leads me to thrift stores where mixed in with old prints and frames I find serenity prayers, zillions of which I can only sadly assume previous owners fell off the wagon. They are modge podged onto dark wood with a beer tab hot glued onto the back for the fastner. Some have pictures of seagulls and others have lighthouses affixed. All start out with the plea that God grants them acceptance.

Apply that into my practical life: I need to accept that I (in my best popeye voice) "yam what's I yam" which includes a lady that chocolate macadamia nut clusters from costco are my version of crack. I made mistakes yesterday last week and all of the years preceeding. I did the best I could with the circumstances, knowledge and resources that were at my disposal. I don't Love to run, I bounce where I don't want to feel bouncing, I sweat, I hurt and I do not nor am ever planning to experience a runners high. Running is not as fun as eating. Watching a movie is more fun than walking up a hill.

Accepting gets you ready to move on and make changes. It says "I was what I was" and I did the best I could at the time with the information and strength I had. It takes into account that you always change and learn and that we always grow. Not accepting your past brings anger, self pity, and continued fattness. Acepting brings peace, and the ability to change.


Michal said...

welcome back! i had to snicker about the chocolate macadamia clusters from costco-- although i didn't buy any, i went by the sample table a few too many times this season and had to force myself to NOT buy them. they are crack to me, too!

and i love that you run without ever expecting that some day you'll have a high and be able to gush about how much you love running. eating is more fun than exercise, but if we do one, we need to do the other as well.

here's praying that the new year brings a healthier, skinnier, change-of-heart me!

Tammy said...

I'm glad I can be of help your "redecorating" fix as you ironically, help me! And curse you for introducing me to your "crack macadamia nut clusters." Oh how I wish I never knew they existed! Very dangerous!!! :) Thanks for sharing, though. :) Once a year shouldn't hurt too badly. Right?