Watching this past biggest loser got me to thinking...(please no snide remarks - I do think fairly often) Watching their accomplishments I think about mine and try to remember being 70 pounds heavier. I look at my 50 pound 4 year old, lift him up and carry him while groaning under the extra weight. It is hard to believe that I carried more than that on my tummy. No wonder I had sore feet.
While heavy I carried a journal entry around with me in my head which started "...I never meant to wake up at 35 with bad hair, obese and tired, it just sort of happened." I sometimes stood in front of the mirror and wondered at the rolls and folds of my skin, still unable to do anything about it. It was a hard time for me, I only had chocolate, casseroles and dessert to soothe and comfort me. I was looking for peace in a pie.
I received a life changing blessing and decided to listen to promptings of the spirit that directed me how to take care of my body, and to have faith in Christ believing I can "counsel with the lord in all thy doings" I told you about my first prompting from the spirit that I decided to follow: - "Are you two people? Do you want to look like two people? Why do you eat two peoples food? I made a decision to just eat one serving of dinner, one bowl of cereal for breakfast, two small healthy snacks between meals, and even if the sandwich was very good I would eat it slow and not get another.
I know that heavy I would still have been redeemed through the grace of Christ, that heavy I had great worth, but my neighbor is dying of breast cancer. She is fighting to hold on until Christmas is over. Talking to her right after she was told she had just a month I watched as she teared up at the thought of leaving them. I am so grateful for each moment I have with my family. If losing 70 pounds gave me a few more years with them then it was worth it, If it gives my children a happier mom and a healthier life then I am glad I did the hard work that year represented. I am grateful for the promptings that got me there.