In October I was fat. 205 fat. I looked up my weight on a weight chart and saw – obese.
I never meant to be 37 and obese. My dreams as a young adult didn’t include cellulite. I dreamed of a life as a stay at home mom, with 5 kids, being fit, and well dressed with cute hair. I got the 5 kids, and the stay at home part, I just didn’t understand that the other parts would be so hard. Life takes on a frantic pace, and in my Florence Nightingale heroics, I forgot to take care of myself (so cliché, but true) life got busy, I didn’t pay attention, stepped on my scale 15 years later and bam. . 205.
That month my sister called inviting my other sister and my mother to have a weight loss challenge. I lost 7 pounds, but the holidays took over, and I gave up.
January came. We had gone to Canada for the New Year. Some pictures were taken and I saw just how fat I had become. In resignation tinged with despair I bought a bag of dove chocolates for the ride home. I hid it in the pocket behind my seat. I would unwrap one, place it on my tongue and let it sit until it became molten creamy chocolate. In one swallow the chocolate would glide down my throat and bring a bit of peace. My son Colton saw my stash and looked at me hopefully. I snarled like an angry wolf, in my best son of satan voice: “These are Mine get your own!!!“ I sounded like an addict.
10 comments:
oooh give some chocolate...I so relate I can't tell you how much I enjoy my stash of confort chocolate. Don't make me give it up...nooooooo
lol, that's awesome that you used the word "snarled," my MIL keeps a stash in the hallway closet and my stash is in my filing cabinet. Megan's stash is in the refridgerator, I guess...she knows I won't eat her cold, hard chocolate bars :D
WAIT a second! Your blog is only an hour old! How did you get 2 comments already!? Sheesh
Calamity Jane you are my hero.
I would like to thank my public for their comments on my debut. anonymous, I have been looking for your stash since you left for work
Marc, don't you know you can microwave cold hard chocolate
Carrot - you are the wind beneath my wings. Thankyou for staying on the phone with me talking me through the scary world of internet blogging. You are a superstar.
Snorri - you are the first non family to comment. Bless you!
wait a minute, snorr, are you my mother?
You don't know me, I found this blog through Carrot's. I wanted to congratulate you on the weight loss and tell you - you look fabulous! What a cutie! :o)
I also have five kids, and could stand to lose a good amount of weight myself. My dilemna...how does a girl find time to REALLY exercise effectively with a baby in the home? Any answers? Hmmm?
Alaskamom, I am so excited to write this because I found ways to make it work. It was tough. I am going to explain it all one day at a time. Hang in there. Believe me, no one hated excercise more than I. And I know how tired you are. 5 kids are so much work. I have a lot of ideas, but start with prayer. Heavenly Father cares and will help you find a way to make it work. Thats how I started.
Mom, i am that son and i remember that now. just let me tell you i know where your chocolate is. it is a small amount though, so good job!
I am inspired and I am so glad you have started a blog. I am 37, have several children, and want to be healthier. Sometimes it seems SOOO hard or even impossible. I'm grateful for the reminder. I look forward to reading more.
Post a Comment