I deserve to eat breakfast

This morning in my prayer I told the Lord that I was turning the day over to Him and I asked Him to guide me. I listed my weaknesses I knew I would face and overeating was one of them.

Getting 5 kids ready and off to school is crazy and when I dropped the last school kids off I got my first impression. "You deserve to eat breakfast" As usual I had fed the kids but forgot to feed myself. Grabbing a quick bite was my instinct and the left-over brownies on the counter were the logical conclusion. The idea that I can make a meal and eat it slowly while chaos and children abound seems wrong.

I made a beautiful breakfast of whole wheat cereal and strawberries on top, using splenda as a sweetener. I set it nicely on the table and amidst the chaos I prayed thanking Heavenly Father for that meal. I wouldn't have had it had I not been given that prompting and that permission.

I don't know what it is about me that makes it seem selfish to take the time I usually dedicate to the family and kids and spend it on me, but I know now that Heavenly Father thinks I deserve it, and that makes me feel Amazingly Special.

I am down 2.5 pounds so far.

A Plan

My hubby told me that to make an airplane lighter and more fuel efficient engineers find small ways to make ordinary things lighter, arm rests, seats, dinner carts are all analyzed to see how they can shave off excess weight.

In order to make myself lighter I am going to analyze and shave off excess.

Today it will be Hot Chocolate with torianni syrup (peppermint or almond). I have been using that every day as a way to stay away from chocolate bars. Lately I have been making my cups fuller and have been indulging more often. Today I am going to buy sugar free hot chocolate and some no calorie sweetener.

That should be simple. Tomorrow I will tackle the graham crackers I dunk inside the hot chocolate.

Baby steps.

Alma 37: 6
6 Now ye may suppose that this is foolishness in me; but behold I say unto you, that by small and simple things are great things brought to pass; and small means in many instances doth confound the wise.

Back to Skinny School

Yesterday it was 7 this morning the scale said 9. last week it said 6 - Pounds. I have gained. I figure I average about 8 pounds total that I have put on. Well on my way to a new dress size.

My half hearted attempt to lose is not working, I must make a plan before everything splats in my face... and then attaches to my waist.

Being skinny doesn't come natural for me. Base line I am fat. I am sure of it. Some mornings I even wonder why I should try, the feeling of food sliding into my gullet is a comfort that pays off better than a mirror. If I wanted to be thin only to fit into skinny jeans then it just wouldn't be worth it. That motivator alone just may send me out shopping for fat pants. The tourniquet that is my skinny pants must serve not as a motivator but a reminder of - "a bright recollection of all (my) guilt. Alma 11:43

I need to remember and recommit to my weight loss motivators.

Family. As a mother I set the tone of our house. When I eat at world record pace and then go for a second term - my children race to keep up.

Self. I love the feeling of being healthy, I just do, enough said.

Blog. Silly, but I need the feeling of being accountable, even if no one reads it, I am out there for all to see

Spirit. Alma 37:47
47 And now, my son, see that ye take care of these sacred things (ie - my body), yea, see that ye look to God and live.

So, it is back to skinny school for me. I am getting back on the health bus, and if you will excuse me, I have an elliptical to ride.